Sharing My Plans

It’s Been a Whirlwind of a Daycrosses
Wow!  We can definitely feel and see the love.  It’s been a whirlwind of a day and I haven’t been able to keep up with all the emails, texts, and facebook well wishes.  So let me just give one big thank you to everyone via this blog.  Your support means so much to us and everyone rejoicing with us just gives me more energy and confidence to move forward.

Plan A and Plan B
Plan A and B were something I was going to write about in 2013.  Then treatments got routine, I didn’t write as much, and the plans were never revealed.  Plan A and B are something I’ve thought about this time around as well.  They are the plans that have kept me going.  The plans for my treatment, cure and life.    Plan A is what I’m on right now for my treatment.  I’ll explain both plans, but let’s back up a bit to see how the current version of my Plan A started.

The Original Diagnosis
For those of you that need a quick recap of how I found out I had leukemia in 2012, you can go here: Recap.  When Lindsey and I were talking about my lab results on December 5th, 2012 and the potential of a leukemia diagnosis, she asked me what we were going to do.  My plan was to go to the hospital, get treated, and then continue on with life.  Well, it’s a bit more complicated than that, so let me explain.

Plan A
Plan A is and has always been about a cure.  I don’t know what path plan A will take.  Two years ago I thought Plan A simply involved 8 rounds of chemotherapy and then a lifetime of remission.  Now I know that Plan A isn’t quite that simple.  Plan A involves relapse, more chemo, blinatumomab and SCT at the very least.  Plan A may involve more relapses and more treatments, but that’s impossible to know now.  Plan A is a winding road with detours, but never dead ends.  I am on plan A now and will continue to be on Plan A for as long as possible.  Plan A is everyday of my life as I live to fight cancer and now fight to remain in remission.  That takes us to Plan B.

Plan B
If plan A doesn’t work out, you always need a plan B.  Plan A for me is fighting cancer every day of my life.  Quite simply put, Plan B is heaven.  Plan B is what allows me to wake up everyday and fight.  Plan B is what gives me calm and peace.  Plan B is knowing that no matter what happens, the end is certain.  Cancer will never win, because Jesus has already overcome the world.  I don’t have to worry about what cancer will bring or how much it will hurt.  I don’t have to worry about the twists and turns of Plan A because I know Plan B will always be there to catch me.  With every fiber in my body, I want plan A to work, but I have confidence in this fight because I know plan B is guaranteed to work.

Plan B’s Beginnings
Plan B began long before I was around. I won’t get into a deep theological history, quite simply because I don’t have a deep theological background.  I know that Jesus loves me and he wants me to loves others.  There of course is a little more to it, but at a basic level, that’s what I want to do.  Live in the love of Jesus and love others in the process.  Now I know that many who read this blog share my same faith.  I also know that many others who read this blog don’t.  It doesn’t matter to me which camp you fall in, because again, I just want to live in Christ’s love and show it to others.  All that other crap doesn’t matter.

We all need a plan B in life, because we don’t know what life will bring or when it will end.  I hope you have a place where you can gather with friends to learn more about God, but I also know that many places that profess to welcome people aren’t always welcoming.  If you haven’t been able to find a place, you might try Church Online.  Church online is a worldwide church that takes place over the internet with services and groups throughout the day.  Because it is made up of people around the world, you are bound to find someone you can relate to. You can check it out at Church Online.  It’s just one simple click, so why don’t you go ahead and click it now.

Recapping the Plans
So now you know my secret.  The way I’ve been fighting cancer.  Pursuing a cure with all that I have, but knowing fully and without a doubt that there is more to this world than just me.  We all have a Plan A.  You are living your Plan A right now.  It might not involve cancer, but it does involve something in your life.  I’m not sure what your something is, but my hope and prayer is that you don’t just have a Plan A.  I want you to have a Plan B as well.

A Duck Dynasty Prayer
Father God, thank you for remission.  Thank you that plan A is still ongoing.  Thank you that I can take another step forward.  I also thank you God for Plan B.  I thank you that your Son died for me and that cancer can’t win.  No obstacle in plan A can win God because you have already overcome.  This is a complex world.  I don’t pretend to know everyone’s story or everyone’s history.  But I do desperately want everyone to know you.  Tonight God I pray that people have plan B.  I pray that their plan A is long and prosperous, but we can’t live forever.  We don’t know where or when we’ll need plan B, but one thing is certain; we will need it.  God let us all live in your love and show it to others.  I thank you for those that already know you.  I thank you for those that will come to know you. And tonight,with the news of remission, I thank you for another day.

17 thoughts on “Sharing My Plans

  1. 🙂 What a way you have to lay it out on the line! Plan B is what encourages me through all the horrible things that happen here on Earth. Everything will be made right one day.

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  2. You are so right, babe! This has been hard and life in general can be hard but when you know your plan B is solid, you can still live this life with joy and peace. I’m so glad I get to live it with you! I’m so proud of everything about you!

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  3. So awesome you are getting good news. I have never been one to go to church every sunday, or even pray everyday but since losing our mom to cancer back in January I have been searching for answers, searching for ways to let go of my anger of why…. Why did it take three hospitals numerous doctors and finally one wonderful emergency room lady doctor to listen to us that there was more going on and then losing mom just six days after that….BUT I am on the track to setting my plan B in place because I’m too exhausted to continue being angry. It is time to hand it over and you Rob have been more of a inspiration then you will ever know.

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  4. Rob, I’ve been “Reading Rob” since the beginning. On top of that, I’ve known both of you before you knew each other, and I’ve been blessed to watch the Culross family begin and grow. I’ve never been part of the inner circle, but I want you to know that many prayers have been coveted and said on your behalf. I can’t know what you’re going through, nor what Lindsey is going through. My only hope is that you are both covered in a blanket of love and support all the days of your life. Plan B is the ultimate plan. I have it, too. Take peace and comfort as you’re able. There’s nothing we all wouldn’t do for you, and that’s a testament to how you live your life, my friend. Love, peace, and God’s blessings…

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  5. The Lord’s Answer
    2 Then the Lord replied:

    “Write down the revelation
    and make it plain on tablets
    so that a herald[b] may run with it.
    3 For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
    it speaks of the end
    and will not prove false.
    Though it linger, wait for it;
    it[c] will certainly come
    and will not delay.
    4 “See, the enemy is puffed up;
    his desires are not upright—
    but the righteous person will live by his faithfulness[d]— Habakkuk 2.

    These is some of my favorite verses these days.
    It reminds me that God’s time is perfect and that I have to have patience and faith.
    I know God hears my prayers.

    You have been running with your revelation, showing us God’s grace, and letting everyone know the promises you have in God.
    Thank you for sharing your “another day” with us!

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  6. You have richly blessed our lives with your faithfulness to God. God created us with a plan and He anxiously awaits the day we return to His loving arms. No one ever said there were any guarantees in life and no matter what happens, no matter who slanders you or hates you, no matter who makes fun of you, or anything else adverse in life, God if faithfully there to pick you up in His loving arms and set you on your way again. He blesses your every step because you have dedicated yourself to Him and Him alone. I know that I am so grateful and humbled by that powerful love which I realized even more during my cancer fight. God is so awesome and good. The peace He brings to life is so soothing. The words and the great sacrifice of His Son Jesus Christ give us the confidence in the promise of Heaven. I have Plan B also and look forward to the day I will join the choirs of angels in Heaven…

    Love and hugs to you and Lindsey and those beautiful kids.

    Aunt Liz

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    1. Two days in a row now, I have typed a response through tears. Not ashamed. Your words, your faith, your attitude are positively inspiring. I pray that Plan A continues in a way that you are most comfortable. I pray that plan B comes years and years down the road for you. As you said, we all have Plan A although our struggles are different: some come from our own bad decisions; others come from circumstances completely out of our control. For those of us who also share Plan B, we know that we can be joyful even in our trials for Plan B is our ultimate goal. For those who have Plan C, I feel sad, and you and I and a world of Christ followers will continue to do our best to help them understand and believe in Plan B. Plan C, you ask? Plan C is facing our ultimate conclusion without Christ. So hard to live Plan A without the hope that comes from Plan B. Love you, Rob. Thanks so much for your wonderful words of wisdom.

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  7. God bless you, Rob! Such a beautiful post that I pray brings comfort and understanding to many! Praise Jesus for your wonderful news of remission! Many blessings to you and your family!

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