It’s Been a Whirlwind of a Day
Wow! We can definitely feel and see the love. It’s been a whirlwind of a day and I haven’t been able to keep up with all the emails, texts, and facebook well wishes. So let me just give one big thank you to everyone via this blog. Your support means so much to us and everyone rejoicing with us just gives me more energy and confidence to move forward.
Plan A and Plan B
Plan A and B were something I was going to write about in 2013. Then treatments got routine, I didn’t write as much, and the plans were never revealed. Plan A and B are something I’ve thought about this time around as well. They are the plans that have kept me going. The plans for my treatment, cure and life. Plan A is what I’m on right now for my treatment. I’ll explain both plans, but let’s back up a bit to see how the current version of my Plan A started.
The Original Diagnosis
For those of you that need a quick recap of how I found out I had leukemia in 2012, you can go here: Recap. When Lindsey and I were talking about my lab results on December 5th, 2012 and the potential of a leukemia diagnosis, she asked me what we were going to do. My plan was to go to the hospital, get treated, and then continue on with life. Well, it’s a bit more complicated than that, so let me explain.
Plan A is and has always been about a cure. I don’t know what path plan A will take. Two years ago I thought Plan A simply involved 8 rounds of chemotherapy and then a lifetime of remission. Now I know that Plan A isn’t quite that simple. Plan A involves relapse, more chemo, blinatumomab and SCT at the very least. Plan A may involve more relapses and more treatments, but that’s impossible to know now. Plan A is a winding road with detours, but never dead ends. I am on plan A now and will continue to be on Plan A for as long as possible. Plan A is everyday of my life as I live to fight cancer and now fight to remain in remission. That takes us to Plan B.
If plan A doesn’t work out, you always need a plan B. Plan A for me is fighting cancer every day of my life. Quite simply put, Plan B is heaven. Plan B is what allows me to wake up everyday and fight. Plan B is what gives me calm and peace. Plan B is knowing that no matter what happens, the end is certain. Cancer will never win, because Jesus has already overcome the world. I don’t have to worry about what cancer will bring or how much it will hurt. I don’t have to worry about the twists and turns of Plan A because I know Plan B will always be there to catch me. With every fiber in my body, I want plan A to work, but I have confidence in this fight because I know plan B is guaranteed to work.
Plan B’s Beginnings
Plan B began long before I was around. I won’t get into a deep theological history, quite simply because I don’t have a deep theological background. I know that Jesus loves me and he wants me to loves others. There of course is a little more to it, but at a basic level, that’s what I want to do. Live in the love of Jesus and love others in the process. Now I know that many who read this blog share my same faith. I also know that many others who read this blog don’t. It doesn’t matter to me which camp you fall in, because again, I just want to live in Christ’s love and show it to others. All that other crap doesn’t matter.
We all need a plan B in life, because we don’t know what life will bring or when it will end. I hope you have a place where you can gather with friends to learn more about God, but I also know that many places that profess to welcome people aren’t always welcoming. If you haven’t been able to find a place, you might try Church Online. Church online is a worldwide church that takes place over the internet with services and groups throughout the day. Because it is made up of people around the world, you are bound to find someone you can relate to. You can check it out at Church Online. It’s just one simple click, so why don’t you go ahead and click it now.
Recapping the Plans
So now you know my secret. The way I’ve been fighting cancer. Pursuing a cure with all that I have, but knowing fully and without a doubt that there is more to this world than just me. We all have a Plan A. You are living your Plan A right now. It might not involve cancer, but it does involve something in your life. I’m not sure what your something is, but my hope and prayer is that you don’t just have a Plan A. I want you to have a Plan B as well.
A Duck Dynasty Prayer
Father God, thank you for remission. Thank you that plan A is still ongoing. Thank you that I can take another step forward. I also thank you God for Plan B. I thank you that your Son died for me and that cancer can’t win. No obstacle in plan A can win God because you have already overcome. This is a complex world. I don’t pretend to know everyone’s story or everyone’s history. But I do desperately want everyone to know you. Tonight God I pray that people have plan B. I pray that their plan A is long and prosperous, but we can’t live forever. We don’t know where or when we’ll need plan B, but one thing is certain; we will need it. God let us all live in your love and show it to others. I thank you for those that already know you. I thank you for those that will come to know you. And tonight,with the news of remission, I thank you for another day.